This post, is specially dedicated to my girlfriend, whom right now might be really pissed at me for all the heartache I have caused her. Meggie dear, I know all this while, things has not been exactly like a bed of roses for our relationship with our lack of proximity being the main concern for you which is only natural. There might be the naysayers, the pessimist, cynics who may cast doubt upon your lack of judgement skill on picking me at the wrong time or etc…. But this is the world where only the both of us exist and others is irrelevant to the equation. It does sound like I am not identifying the crux of the problem in our relationship. And I think I might know what it is all along. It is perhaps me. Sometimes I do think on why I tend to have the tendency to get on your nerves everytime, but as I told you, I get on the nerves of everyone I love. My family could be a prove to that. But at the end of the day, having someone to fight with, to laugh with, and to cry with is what Love is all about. There is ups and downs in life and the main thing is to just be there for each other. I do sound childish most of the time and might seems to lack maturity which is an invaluable asset for a man to have and for a girl to yearn for. But believe you me, behind this childish persona, I am as sober and as alert to the situations around me. When the time is right or the circumstances serious enough, desperate times calls for desperate measures and I shall show you the side of me which is long due for. But being childish or the more ‘relaxed person’ is just a way of life.I don’t treat life seriously and everything seems to be a joke to me sometimes. Maybe I think of bigger things in life rather than the smaller one which only serves to be an amusement for me. I do try to be as normal as a bf would be and do all thing’s romantic for you but I guess that is just not me. I am not good with expression and for this Valentine’s, I suppose u deserve something better from me. I thought long and hard and reflecting on what u have said to me based on our previous chats in MSN, you wanted my time and reassurance of my feelings to you. It wasn’t the gift or anything material as such. You just needed to know that I am there for you through thick and thin. I am wondering if you would read all this because this seems like an endless essay, but hey, you picked a lawyer as a bf. Lastly my dear Meg, I love you for all your flaws and your imperfection. I know you doubt yourself physical appearance wise, and I would be lying if I told you that I don’t like pretty girls, but I am just not a typical guy who goes after a hot chick just because she would make a good trophy, I am a more of a ‘feeling guy’. I feel things and decide if i want it or not. You make me feel good and let’s just cherish the moment. We might not be together anymore a few years down the road but who can predict the future? Although I might be busy at times, but this is just how life is and you are free to feel ‘pek’ because that is only normal my dear 
You can’t be feeling happy everyday do you? All you need to feel is my love for you and your fats And to end my essay, I wrote a poem for you, hope you enjoy it my love
Every time you call I'm filled with joy For it's one more time I get to see your pretty face. I love to hear your laugh. I listen to it everyday through the cam. It's what brightens my life From dusk ti'l dawn and morning ti'l night As the different time zones separates us As night starts to set, and your's starts to rise Butterflies crawl in my stomach and never seem to go away. Then comes this awkward silence that so many like to break. But this kind is different. It's the kind of silence that you don't mind having around The kind that lets you know the person you love is just on the other side Saying without words, I love you.
HAPPY VALENTINE’S MY DEAR MEGGIE LYE MEI YI
