Vox Populi

To a new era!

desvermis — Sun, 04 Sep 2011 18:36:57 +0000

So in a day more, I will embark on a new chapter of my life. Where reality kicks in and you cant hide in schools and college anymore. It is the time where we have to go out of our comfort zone. As daunting as it sounds like, I am betting that it is not as bad as it seems. I just hope that I am able to deliver. There is always a fear of not performing up to par and end up being a dissapointment to everyone especially myself. I have big dreams, but is my ability able to commensurate for it? Only time will tell

In a state of flux

desvermis — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 03:27:19 +0000

I am now in a state of limbo by having to choose one job over the other. I got a job in a law firm, but at the same time I got an interview for a financial position that really interests me. Finance has always been my passion, but its not that I detest Law by itself. I dont hate it but i dont love it either. Its just something that I happen to take as my degree qualification. So what do I do now?? So many options but so limited time to choose. Man this is harder than my law exams. At least in the exams I get to study and apply. Its either I get it right or I dont. But this time, you dont know what is right or wrong, Its take it or dont. Two paths diverge, but which to take? Brings back memory anyone? A poem by Ruddyard Kippling it is and definitely a poem best suited for my situation right now. So help me god, what I should do.

A vengeance to improve

desvermis — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 03:14:05 +0000

The main concern that is plaguing me right now is that I am defintely getting very rusty with all the holidays and long breaks from welll…. using my brain. It is scientifically proven that long holidays could drastically decrease one’s IQ level. Say what!!! I am due to work next week and i reckon that I should be at the top of my game and deliver the best result, not go there and look like goofy. Initially I just shoved the thought that I am getting dumb as time passes by but now my worries are fortified. It is getting longer and longer for me to come up with a solution or to comprehend something and considering I am a recent law graduate, it means a lot of things. This is really heartwrenching to see myself in this condition. All my brains neuron are just dwindling by the millions as we speak!!! Owh well that sound abit exaggerated but it is effective to convey the direness of my situation. So to remedy my problem, I should start writting more often to exercise my brain for a bit. And oh my gosh, I was looking at some algebra the other day and I just stared at it. My mind was just blank… Its like I didnt recognize the numbers or anything like tht. Looks so foreign. So fucked…

St. Valentines

desvermis — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 01:38:51 +0000

This post, is specially dedicated to my girlfriend, whom right now might be really pissed at me for all the heartache I have caused her. Meggie dear, I know all this while, things has not been exactly like a bed of roses for our relationship with our lack of proximity being the main concern for you which is only natural. There might be the naysayers, the pessimist, cynics who may cast doubt upon your lack of judgement skill on picking me at the wrong time or etc…. But this is the world where only the both of us exist and others is irrelevant to the equation. It does sound like I am not identifying the crux of the problem in our relationship. And I think I might know what it is all along. It is perhaps me. Sometimes I do think on why I tend to have the tendency to get on your nerves everytime, but as I told you, I get on the nerves of everyone I love. My family could be a prove to that. But at the end of the day, having someone to fight with, to laugh with, and to cry with is what Love is all about. There is ups and downs in life and the main thing is to just be there for each other. I do sound childish most of the time and might seems to lack maturity which is an invaluable asset for a man to have and for a girl to yearn for. But believe you me, behind this childish persona, I am as sober and as alert to the situations around me. When the time is right or the circumstances serious enough, desperate times calls for desperate measures and I shall show you the side of me which is long due for. But being childish or the more ‘relaxed person’ is just a way of life.I don’t treat life seriously and everything seems to be a joke to me sometimes. Maybe I think of bigger things in life rather than the smaller one which only serves to be an amusement for me. I do try to be as normal as a bf would be and do all thing’s romantic for you but I guess that is just not me. I am not good with expression and for this Valentine’s, I suppose u deserve something better from me. I thought long and hard and reflecting on what u have said to me based on our previous chats in MSN, you wanted my time and reassurance of my feelings to you. It wasn’t the gift or anything material as such. You just needed to know that I am there for you through thick and thin. I am wondering if you would read all this because this seems like an endless essay, but hey, you picked a lawyer as a bf. Lastly my dear Meg, I love you for all your flaws and your imperfection. I know you doubt yourself physical appearance wise, and I would be lying if I told you that I don’t like pretty girls, but I am just not a typical guy who goes after a hot chick just because she would make a good trophy, I am a more of a ‘feeling guy’. I feel things and decide if i want it or not. You make me feel good and let’s just cherish the moment. We might not be together anymore a few years down the road but who can predict the future? Although I might be busy at times, but this is just how life is and you are free to feel ‘pek’ because that is only normal my dear You can’t be feeling happy everyday do you? All you need to feel is my love for you and your fats And to end my essay, I wrote a poem for you, hope you enjoy it my love

Every time you call I'm filled with joy
For it's one more time I get to see your pretty face.
I love to hear your laugh.
I listen to it everyday through the cam.
It's what brightens my life
From dusk ti'l dawn and morning ti'l night
As the different time zones separates us
As night starts to set, and your's starts to rise
Butterflies crawl in my stomach and never seem to go away.
Then comes this awkward silence that so many like to break.
But this kind is different.
It's the kind of silence that you don't mind having around
The kind that lets you know
the person you love is just on the other side
Saying without words, I love you.

HAPPY VALENTINE’S MY DEAR MEGGIE LYE MEI YI

Anticipation

desvermis — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 02:23:21 +0000

Counting down the days towards the unveiling result of my 3months hardwork has sure made me thinking alot about the priorities in my life. Just like how one will ponder about their life achievements and whether they have done it wrong or correctly. But come to think about it, what is wrong and correct. We create our own hell and heaven, and demon crawls out from the hell you created to reclaim back their dues. It took me long enough to pen down my thought. How strange the feeling of a deterioration in one’s wisdom and intellect. Perhaps it is a result of me not writting for a long long time. Getting rusty on my flow of thoughts. It does feel horrible. Makes you feel dumb…Insipid to others. But besides this invisible force restraining me from expanding my horizon….it feels that I am writting gibberishly. I am not even comprehending this essay. I just felt like writting, no particular motive, no theme, no purpose. Nothing seems to compel me anymore. The more you know, the less of a person you become. Everything is just a strange illusion.

The fraternity

desvermis — Mon, 13 Dec 2010 01:35:44 +0000

Dec 13th, Monday, 2010 shall mark a day that shall be well remembered by yours truly, as the day where I become part of ‘it’. Nobody knows what ‘it’ is until one goes through the process and rituals to be a part of ‘it’. Bizarre indeed….an amalgamation of feelings that I cant explain by mere words alone. The ubiquitous fraternity that has been the subject of taboo for many centuries shall now be part of me and who i am. Well does curiosity kills the cat or does the cat shall become one day a fat cat? We will just have to wait and see

The Melody named Solitude

desvermis — Thu, 18 Nov 2010 22:42:06 +0000

Well solitude, loneliness brings back a certain unique feeling into everyone’s life and some might perceive it differently depending on the context that one might like to put them into. You might feel furious towards how lonely your life could be at a certain point of time and in the midst of it all, you could also get jaded by it. It kinda eats you up inside. When the phone vibrates, you got all excited and hyper expecting that some of your friends might be calling you out and save you from the boredom, but only to realise wht you got is an sms from 02 stating that it is time to top up my phone credit. So ta-dah!!! here i am blogging randomly about how pathetic my life is at this moment. How I wish i was back home in msia where I can go out to the mamak with my friends or perhaps call my girlfriend out for a lovely evening together where time doesn’t exist and hence boredom out of the equation…and how i miss the cinema’s…yes those cheap cinemas where I can watch a few movies back to back without hurting my wallet. Well I guess the grass is not always greener on the other side ain’t it? Time to go back to my tutorial homework peeps, till then.

Nottingham

desvermis — Mon, 08 Nov 2010 00:51:45 +0000

Well before I pen down my thoughts on Nottingham, I would like to get something out of my chest by saying this: Fuck The UK Weather. Alright about nottingham then….let;s see what can I trace back from the memory that is left of nottingham. Well the scenery is superb, better than what you usually see as your computer screensaver or postcard….it is just breathtaking….it was autumn and the time was just right for us to pillage the town and University. Well pictures tells a thousand words. But it was pretty cold there to the extent that i couldn’t feel my chicks. And while I am typing this post, the wind of Liverpool sure is aggressive. It feels like my roof is gonna get blown away any time soon. And I realised I really love my gf

Harmonization

desvermis — Wed, 27 Oct 2010 23:28:38 +0000

Some of my course mates are juggling in between part time jobs which comes with it walking for 3 miles under the rain, knocking on a stranger’s door and asking for charity under the economic situation that they are experiencing now……….well i bid them luck. Well I wonder what motivates one to work besides the obvious money chase. Experience perhaps? Is that something we tell ourselves everyday? That we are trading our precious time for jobs that are supposedly enriching. Well the definition of enriching here is open for debate. Are we truly being paid enough for our time? Are we getting enough experience as opposed to the experience that we can obtain by having free time to ‘explore’. Nobody can justify your action. This in economic terms I believe is called the opportunity cost. Well I have no idea why I decided to write this post. I am wondering if I should work myself. One year in UK….should I fill it with work? Not to mention I will have to work for the next half of my life so why rush it? Enjoy the moment I have right here? But I dont have much money to spare….so it seems to be an oxymoron. I want to have fun but i dont have the money to. But what the hell, the main purpose I am here is to study, there is no denying that but come to think of it this is a one in a lifetime experience in the UK and god knows if i would come again to visit….so it doesn’t sound right that if i fill it with some mundane studying and suffocating myself in the room doesn’t sound like a good prospect to me. Hah well, I guess time shall tell me the right flow to follow.

The Lack of Certainty

desvermis — Mon, 25 Oct 2010 18:41:31 +0000

I just read the news regarding an untrained nurse who whilst doing her daily routine of servicing her patient ( this is an in-house nurse), accidentally switched off (I cant emphasis more on the word ‘switched off’) the respiratory help machine. The patient was left for 14 minutes unattended with the untrained nurse beside him trying to perform a resuscitation and what do you know, she performs it wrongly. So we might as well say that he is unattended for 14 minutes. And the result of that? Well it is a pretty easy conclusion to make for anyone who has a reasonable thinking skills..lack of oxygen, 14 minutes…well u perform some calculation and you get a pretty much disabled person. He was a disabled person before this as a result from his mishap a few years back, but he could still exercise a reasonable judgement and communication. But now his speech seems slurred like me and his quality of life has been affected tremendously as a result. Imagine that you put your life on stake and anyone would reckon that hiring a personal nurse from a reputable firm would of course comes with it a professional treatment that is above of the general hospital and greater care could be provided. So hence the title ‘The Lack of Certainty’. We never could be certain of the outcome of our decision. Well we could most probably use money to improve our odds, but it is by no means extracting out the inherent risk that persist. We are however risk averse people and will try to minimize our exposed risk as minimal as it can be especially when it comes to our health with the exception of drunkards, drug addicts and smokers. Uncertainty conceals danger